How long does a moment last?

As an introduction to me, it is important to know these few things:
I am an adjunct instructor at the University of Florida. I also coach the speech and debate team at UF and am in a little band. I generally love my life, my friends and my activities, but at times I find myself unsatisfied. I'm constantly looking for something new on the outside. It is my hope that this blog will provide me with something that comes from the inside. So, here's what's inside...

This year, I decided to make my New Year's Resolutions a month early. That way, I figure, there is a better chance that I'll actually commit to some of them. I'm in a transition period--it kind of feels like I've been in this period for awhile now--and that is where most of my resolutions come from. I'm not old but I'm getting to the point where I want to live a more adult lifestyle. So here's the list (I wrote this in an e-mail to some of my closest friends--pardon the lack of attention to detail):

1. be healthy...ie eat and exercise healthy shite
2. get involved in something outside of the university--i'm thinking political campaign
3. find new ways to be satisfied with speech and debate--devising plan with EW to have speech team recruiting at high school tournament
4. do something creative--dunno yet
5. enjoy saturdays completely--last saturday i went to micanopy and looked at antiques, then had the most delicious pizza. this was a good way to spend the day.
6. don't get too caught up in work to live life...i think that is the gist of the whole list
7. STOP DATING!!!

That last one is really the most important one. In April of this year, my boyfriend of two years and I broke up. I spend the summer crying and pondering why why why? Then, I started dating immediately. And there was no shortage of men! I told the universe I wanted a man, I wanted to feel desired, I wanted to feel wanted. The universe provided. The universe provided more than I could have imagined.

So, as more time has passed, I've realized that for the past seven years I have been in a relationship. Some have been good, others have been bad--but in all of them I gave up something in myself in order to be with the other person. I want to change that. I'm hoping that this blog will help me reclaim myself and my personality. I call it "A Moment's Freedom," because that's what I need: freedom. I'm taking this time, this moment, and hoping that someone out there reads this and somehow connects. I don't promise to write every day or even every week. I just need an outlet.


Until next time!